I've been a bit the same scratch me .. And now I'm kind of hitting the rebellion switch
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72What was the biggest thing that convinced you that
by Ponyo in.....the truth was not the truth... ?
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Oh and since having my kids. The blood thing because a massive crisis of conscience to me. I thought how could I let my child die if they needed blood or if I needed blood as I had a hemorrhage in mh second birth. I thought. I would be guilty of murser and be blood guilty if I let that happen
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I personally had had some doubts about it all being true but I had faith in Jehovah, I started questioning things when I was looking into going vegan. I'd seen documentaries on the factory farming and the violent ways the animals were killed and tortured for meat, I thought why isn't the org looking into this. We aren't allowed to watch anything violent/immoral Etc. then after looking into vaccinations I also thought, some vaccines have blood fractions in them and DNA cells. Why haven't the org looked into this. Then I thought, it would be too unpopular to put these rules into place. But yet we cant celebrate birthdays/ Father's Day/ Mother's Day when there's no specific rule for that.
When they brought out the recent grey bible translation of the NWT I was thinking... Hmmmm I think it's a bit presumptuous to go translating the bible again.. Something sidnt sit right with me.
im now in the in between stage. Pretty confused. Don't know what to believe, cognitive dissonance and about 1/4 through COC. Looking forward to finishing this book.
Thanks for your replies. They're very interesting. I've also seen a little too many injustices in the congs
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I'm so confused, help?
by Ponyo ini want to share my story.
(might be a tad long).
i have no idea where i stand anymore regarding being a jw and where i stand in my marriage.. im 28 years old and the years are certainly ticking by.
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Thanks heaps dubstepped. I'm trying really hard here. I've been conflicted since our honeymoon which was 6 years ago and I actually feel really sorry for my hubby because he really does deserve better. :(
I am realizing it now. I've been brainwashed. I've started COC and I watched an hour interview of ray franz on YouTube and the relief from my shoulders was huge.
thanks for your reply. I have been beating myself up a bit with the other replies. I'm booking into a psych very soon.
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I'm so confused, help?
by Ponyo ini want to share my story.
(might be a tad long).
i have no idea where i stand anymore regarding being a jw and where i stand in my marriage.. im 28 years old and the years are certainly ticking by.
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Ponyo
Thank you half banana, that was very helpful.
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NJ501 thank you, where is it online?
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Does anyone know where I can buy COC for under $50?
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I'm so confused, help?
by Ponyo ini want to share my story.
(might be a tad long).
i have no idea where i stand anymore regarding being a jw and where i stand in my marriage.. im 28 years old and the years are certainly ticking by.
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Ponyo
Ouch.
Okay I understand where you guys are coming from. Yeah my kids come first. Of course I would never leave them, is that what some of you are thinking? :( I do my best every day to give them everything they need.
I am also thinking of my husband in this situation. I think he deserves better than this. He deseerves someone who's truly in love with him.
Unfortunately I was an idiot and thought I was doing the right thing by jehovah. And it was the right thing by my mums standards and the religions hold on me.Not so much mine. I've never been selfish my whole life. I always put jehovah first or what my mum wanted.
I cousdnt even have my best friend as a bridesmaid at my own wedding because mum said she is worldly. You can't do that.
I've left out a lot of my life in this post. I really am not a drama queen. I don't have social media for that reason.ive just come to a point where I'm sick of doing everything for other people, I've never made descisions in my life because it feels right to me. And I'm over it. I wish I backed myself more.
I wanted to share my story as it's all in my head at the moment and I can't let it out to anyone and my head feels like it's going to explode,
but I will book into a counselor,
thanks for your time.
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I'm so confused, help?
by Ponyo ini want to share my story.
(might be a tad long).
i have no idea where i stand anymore regarding being a jw and where i stand in my marriage.. im 28 years old and the years are certainly ticking by.
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Ponyo
Thanks fall guys. I will be doing more research. The Giles gray, Thanks for your reply too. And yes that's what I'm scared of.
Diogenesister thank you I will check that out.
Joho thank you I will have a read. I'm also in Australia. The top end :)
desirous of change. I know that fantasy man isn't all fantasy. I know life would be damn hard if I took that path. you have to realize that's what is messing with my mind, I know it's not going to be easy in the slightest and all butterflies and unicorns. But what about feeling empty in my marriage.
thanks for your replies. I'll continue reading x